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Well, I've always told myself I wouldn't give up my friends over a guy, but there is a line, you know. Being a masochist does not mean that I enjoy emotional pain as well as physical. I should not have to watch my best friend hang all over the one guy i truly care about, even if I do refuse to take him back.

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well like I was saying today was a good day�

and� things are getting better

and I have to go to get a mother's day present too

... I'm so glad I'm starting to feel better

but grading does make me nervous

Okay, the hole dealio is, My best friend in the whole entire world Has told me something i CANNOT�beleive, i cried my green eyes out, they didnt twinkle with happiness. The reason is She is moving back to her Home town in1-2 Years, I know a year or two is a long time, but she is hardly allowed to visit me. Im A Little happy, not in a bad way its just that thats a long time to think, organise things, hey they might change their minds, she wil be plenty old enough to take care of heself, and i feel she will forget i exist, i will just me a stikie on the wall that will eventually collect dust and fall apart. thats what im afraid of.

Any Suggestions to whisk her away ?!! (not like that!)

Lolastar18

xx

I layed there,

holding my head,

as thought of my child,

danced through my head.

I opened my eyes in my dream world,

and saw you today.

God says,

things will happen Opoun my doing.

So now I am sitting here, dreaming of you,

running to me,

yelling,

mommy, mommy!

I saw you in a dream,

you and my beautiful christopher anthoney.

Now i have dreams of you my child,

my hearts now two,

and life grows inside.

Dear child o' mine,

do not worry, for mommy is here,

Tristain cole,

heather daniel,

which one you'll,

only time can tell.

I love you honey.

Good night.

Now mommy will hold you tight.

Think the south beach is kicking in.� Weight 210.8 this morning.

Some shoulder pain in right side so taking it easy on sweat days.

As i cry,

the diamonds fall from the sky,

as i cry,

the willow's weep,

as i cry,

i fall to my feet,

i cry,

because you no longer need me.

As I cry,

you walk away,

as i cry,

the pain begins to dance my days away.

As I cry,

no one stops to see,

the heart,

that's been torn right up,

and out of me.

As I cry,

daddy,

you're little girl is scarred,

as i cry,

mommy,

you're little girl wishes,

that you were there.

I was waiting,

by the phone,

today,

waiting by to hear your voice.

�

the phone did ring,

now i have no choice,

because she said,

"He did last night, just like you said, by 3:03 am,

he was dead."

�

Now I'll hold tight to,

the memories,

that you will no longer be here to make with me.

�

I got up today,

dressed in what I wore yesterday.

Tears pooring down my face.

I opened the blinded today,

and did not see the blue sky,

only gray.

�

I went to your house today,

and it felt so empty,

and it was o so painful.

I packed up,

what you left to me,

and went on my way.

asking God,"�Why today?"

�

We went and we burried you,

today.

And yes Grandpa Apple Jack Kunkle,

It rained today...

�

IN MEMEORY OF

JACK EARL KUNKLE

October 18,1937 - May 10, 2007